So you've gotta learn that I'll ditch you countless times but I'll still come back to you again. Not to worry. I won't make love to Tumblr.
I need to pay Tumblr a visit... We'll be fair okay? Both of you will take turns to be with me.
the maggi goreng was not as nice as before cuz it dusnt have tt kick anymore cuz i'm "banned" from eating chili padi.
i shud have just eaten that freaking awesome spize star burger. daym.
i came back home and did a video recording which was a super pain-in-the-ass till 5am. bathe and slept only for an hour. now i look like a freaking zombie.
tomorrow's my competition and im not ready. i still gotta go for fitting this evening and buy new heels and stuff for halloween. i'll be a devilish nurse tomorrow, but i reckon that i'll be a
How i wish i can sleep/hibernate all the way. I am too tired that I dun have the energy to eat!
Warning: Explicit content.
Omg i am fucking depressed with my life rite now. Just so stressed up with work and school. Don't get me wrong, work's all fine just that there are a few situations that happened that makes me so effing stressed up and makes me ask myself why the fuck am I working there. I like working there, just that I don't know if i'm working there for myself or just for the sake of my mom who just wants me to have a stable job but not so attractive pay. Okay, maybe it's just me cause you fucking go somewhere else to work to get a fucking better pay.
BUT NO!! My pay's like stagnant! Just the same as how I started at Citibank. I don't know whether to blame myself or my mom. Okay, put the blame on me for listening to my mom for putting that low expected pay. What the fuck! I've never been this depressed before!
Dun get me wrong again, i don't hate my mom. I just hate the pressure that she puts me thru forcing me that it's okay to get a not so attractive pay cause at least your job is stable.
First of all, I am still in FUCKING probation. Secondly, I got applied for a beauty contest thanks to my mom cause it was just for fun. Then I got screwed for being IN, but there's always a good side to it cause I get to make fifteen new beautiful ladies who keeps me sane.
And because I'm fucking IN the competition, I HAD to fucking take a day off for a photoshoot, and it just makes this tiny girl on probation looks so bad and FEEL bad. Thanks mom.
Sometimes I feel that i do things just to make my mom happy. I'm sorry, i'm not venting my anger towards my mom altho sometimes it seems like I am. I love my parents, i wanna make them happy, but i believe that it should be a two way thing u know.
Like, i understand you and you should understand how i feel too.
And my mom just asked me to do a fucking catwalk in the house. Please bear in mind that this is not the first time she's been asking me to do since the time i got into the competition.
And what's worse for me today, I found out from my boss that it's difficult to get promoted if you're doing part-time studies. And on the first day of work, I got informed by my new colleagues that the increment is... well, fill in the blanks yourself. So demoralizing.
I know mom's all excited about me being in the competition, but HEY, i've got my schoolwork to do and i get exhausted all the time after rehearsals which ends at 11pm and by the time i get home, i get so shagged and procrastinate on my assignments again.
But thank god, God gave me brains which can just type out 1554 words in just a short period of time from 4am till 6am on sunday morning.
Maybe this is a test for me. Maybe HE up there just wanna put me thru this course. OMG, if given a choice on choosing either working full-time only or studying full-time, I just don't know which one to choose!
I think i'm stupid enuf to listen to my mom just to please her and reject that 2.5k nett paying job. Dammit. Damn you, Aisha. You're a fucking idiot. You'd be fucking fucking rich by now.
Sometimes, I should have listened to my boyfriend. And you know what, my father agrees with that too!
Fahd congratulated me for fasting one whole day and doing all my 5 prayers in a day.
Weee~
Well, sleeping really helped. And i hope i can continue this good attitude for the whole month or more =)
I'm suppose to be doing my marketing assignment which is due Tuesday. Well, i set it to Tues cause i need to compile all the other members work as well.
If it hadn't been for the fasting month, I'd have bitch so much about a group member who almost had me have a paper cut on my face on Friday.
Okay, as a summary, he's just so enthusiastic about the assignment, which is good, but at the same time he thinks that his other members can't do a good job like him.
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And he almost argued with me on Friday because of a freaking class activity. The group kinda had a disagreement about him doing the layout of the flow chart. And for every point that i stated, he kinda rejected it.
Eyy, sape lagi fresh in marketing ni? Sape fresh graduate ni?
And when it was time to present, i tot i'd be given a chance to go out there to present (cause i love presentations) but little did i expect him to grab the paper, which almost cut me right on the face and eye, and ran to the front to present. Eyy, if it's just plain simple explanation, you don't have to present cause the lecturer would already know what to expect.
My goodness! He's driving me mad. And he keeps on asking for our parts in the assignment and let me quote what he said, "Well, if you guys are not done yet, i'll just submit my part."
Well fyi (omg i feel like cursing him), kalau kau pikir kau pandai sangat and u think u can get full marks on ur part, which is just 25 marks, well go and submit. Cause we can be free riders and we all will share the same pathetic mark.
And bear in mind that this is university standard, there's no peer evaluation. And what??? When was it that you graduated from poly?? Just because you're wayy older than me by almost 20 years doesn't mean that you know everything.
And so i went out of the class halfway to call Fahd and complain.
My patience is almost at the brim now.
Oh well, better start reading my textbook. OMG. Since when do i start reading textbooks?!?!?!
Nights people. And happy fasting!
Okay!!!! I have this crazy idea to go jalan-jalan cari makan after Fahd's brother's wedding!!
Why after????
Cause i wanna go to big splash too!!! So let the sun tanning and all be after the wedding. Hahaha. And i'm thinking of coloring my hair so not a good idea to bleach it in chlorine water now.
And i've found a few place to eat HALAL food!!!
So i found this website, http://hungrygowhere.com ok la it's not bad. Can filter here and there. So i filtered Pasir Ris & Tampines
But what i initially searched for was that Bakery in Middle Road which sells that sinfully nice Bean Curd Tart!!!
So instead of dying out of breath lookin at Victoria's Secrets collection and resisting the temptation to use that powerful plastic card(s) of mine, might as well i die of a heart attack looking at food rite???
Hahaha.
And here are the list of places i found in the east side (Pasir Ris/Tampines)
Ayam Penyet Ria( There's ayam penyet b!!! U want to eat rite?!?!?!?!)
They said it's in tampines mall on the 4th floor. Dunno le. Havent been to TM for quite long.
Cafe Connect by O'Briens as well as another cafe called Megapicks
U sure or not tht O'briens food are halal??
This one's at Courts Megastore
And they said that there's Fig&Olive in Tampines Junction, Tampines Ave 5
Wah, i am soooo gonna hunt for food here and there. Woohooo!!!
My appetite's been like helluva pig's one. And i remembered that me and Fahd actually went to Simpang Bedok for dinner and came back again for supper!
And Fahd's not been "fit" in a way, altho he's still quite sapau on the top cause he claims tat i whet up his appetite whenever he sees me eating!
So yeah, Fahd's not as fit as before, and aku makan macam babi pon tak gemuk-gemuk.
Okay, goodniteeeeeeee -inserts the way Fahd says that all the time; high pitch-